ANYMORE

I just can't do this

Everyone thinks

I am so damn strong

Hiding these emotions that consume me

Such a darkness lies within me and I can't fight it

Anymore

Building these walls so high

to save myself

From the pain

Dwelling in so hopelessly

Falling deeper and

I can't climb

Anymore

I've walked this path so long

I'm tired

I ache every day but no one sees

I keep waiting

and wearing this mask

Begging

To see the light

That I know is waiting for me

If I fight

But I don't want to fight

Anymore

Would it even matter?

Would the tears fall as I'm laid to rest

and the sea of faces look onward

shocked and dismayed

at what I’ve done

and what I've left behind

Never seeing

the battle that raged inside my soul

I worked so hard to hide

But I don't want to hide

Anymore

copyright Amy Pelletier (2008)