BEAUTIFUL

I stare into the mirror

and try to believe

that I'm beautiful

on the inside

as I watch him

look at her

with lust

adoration

curiosity

I hate

this rage

that's building inside of me

Insecurity

In my mind

her neck is broken

she lies crumpled

in a heap

on the dirty floor

like my feelings

I turn

and smile at her

as I conceal

these thoughts

and pretend

we're friends

I hate you